Continuing with the tradition of the last two years, I’m choosing a word of focus for the year 2012. Last year’s word, direction, has served me well. I still struggle with spreading myself too thin, wanting to do too many things; but I’ve made progress in focusing on what’s most important right now.
Over the course of my quest for direction, I noticed my motives for many of the things I “want” to do were related to other people. For example, my desire to learn to play the piano; I do want to learn to play the piano, but making the time necessary was creating more stress than pleasure. But I pushed on hoping my practices would inspire my children to practice – it didn’t. Part way through the year, I put that goal aside for now.
I hit me again several times in December. Things I love about Christmas became filled with drama, like how many kinds of cookies we need on hand for Santa and our advent drawers. I love the activities that go with Christmas, but I kept hearing how my kiddos didn’t feel it was enough and I struggled with feeling the joy of the season. I started asking myself, what do I need to feel the spirit of Christmas? What does taking care of me look like? Because truthfully trying to make Christmas magical for my kids wasn’t working for me.
By the end of the year, my word of focus for 2012 emerged. It seems a little selfish, but I don’t think it is. I need to nurture myself to nurture others. The more I think about my words from the last few of years, they are part of the same journey. There’s a flow between progress, direction and nurture. Here’s to enjoying the journey!
What’s your word for the 2012?