I’m Such a Girl

I’ve frequently been disgruntled about the double standard between raising boys and girls. A girl is shushed, while a boy gets away with being rowdy because that’s just how boys are. Because of this video, the hypocrisy of it all has really hit me personally.

I was shy and insecure as a child. In adulthood I’ve found a few niches in which I felt comfortable and confident, but I’ve come to realize those niches can be precarious. The recent changes in my life have all but wiped out my comfort zones. I’m sure in the long run I’ll grow into a stronger person. In the meantime, I have days where I struggle to cling onto scraps of confidence.Princess

I don’t remember being told I run or throw like a girl, but I do remember being told not to cry like a girl, or don’t be such a princess. I still have to consciously stop myself from cringing when I hear someone call their little girl a princess, even though I know they mean it as a term of endearment.

These seemingly innocent comments settled into my subconscious, taunting me when I faced a new opportunity. Somehow they morphed into, “You can’t do that, you’re not good enough.” Listening to that negative self-talk for so many years conditioned me to listen to everyone else who told me, “You can’t do that, you don’t have what it takes.” Oddly enough, the other side of that coin is inability to believe those who tried to encourage me along the way.

Just over a year and half ago, I re-entered the workforce as a part time receptionist. I was nervous when I first started, but the first time I got called on making a mistake I was terrified. My heart raced half way up my throat as I followed my manager into the office for what was the kindest reproach I had ever received. It just about unglued me; I didn’t know how to handle someone saying “This is what you did wrong, this is why it was wrong and here’s what I’d like you to do instead.”

Such a GirlI’m grateful I was finally to a point in my life that I started to question the status quo my life had fallen into. What if what I thought was my reality, really wasn’t? Maybe I deserved to be treated with love and compassion. That was the beginning of the emergence to my new outlook. I’ll let you know how it turns out.

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My Pursuit in Excellence

Last year I started working outside of the home and began the divorce process. I knew these significant life changes would take some adjusting. I didn’t know that adjusting would go so deep and take so long. These adjustments have changed my definition of excellence, at least in some of the details. My pursuit in excellence (PIE) is still not a piece of cake, especially since I’m still figuring out what excellence looks like now?

Crater Monument TrailFocusing on that question, leads me to wonder how to record my pursuit in excellence, when I don’t know what excellence looks like to me. Where does this blog fit in with this transition? Is it book reviews and recipes? Cub Scouts and parties? Since working full time, all of those activities occur less frequently now. While they seem fairly superficial, the can be parts of my journey because they are a vehicle to bond with those I love, and avenues for growth. But what are my deeper focuses? Am I brave enough to really open up about the inner transformation I’m undergoing? Let’s hope so.

Thank you to those who have stuck with me through this transition. I appreciate your support and encouragement as I find my way down the bumpy path. Hopefully we can help each other along the journey toward excellence.

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Easter Breakfast

Easter BreakfastWhat started off as our traditional Christmas morning breakfast has also become our traditional Easter morning breakfast. With all those hard-boiled eggs, this is the perfect way to actually use all those eggs the Easter Bunny hid. Just don’t try it with the plastic ones; the chocolate ones might not be the best either.

I love when the egg dye bleeds into the eggs and makes breakfast a little extra pretty.

Since the Easter Bunny visits us on Saturday morning, I assemble Sunday’s breakfast on Saturday night and bake it Sunday morning.

Easter Breakfast
Recipe type: Breakfast
Cook time: 
Total time: 
Ingredients
  • 12 hard boiled eggs
  • 24 sausage links
  • 1 cube of butter or margarine
  • 1 cup flour
  • 3-4 cups milk
  • Cheddar cheese
Instructions
  1. Brown sausage and lay in 9” x 13” pan.
  2. Slice eggs in half lengthwise and lay on the sausage.
  3. Melt butter, stir in flour and milk.
  4. Cook until over medium heat, stirring constantly, until it forms a thick sauce, about 10 or 15 minutes.
  5. Sprinkle cheese on top.
  6. Cover with foil.
  7. Refrigerate overnight.
  8. Bake for 30 minutes at 350.

 

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November & December Sliced

I keep getting more and more behind with this whole blogging thing, now I’m slicing November and December in the middle of January! But I’m glad to review the last too months regardless. Maybe this year I can come up with a schedule I can make happen.

November

.6 – Pounds gained

Rolls sliced

These rolls don’t need a long time to rise!

1 – Book read, Crossed by Ally Condie

29 – Countries visited

48 – Rolls made for Thanksgiving, I thought I’d grab a shower while I let the rolls rise. As you can see that wasn’t the best idea.

49 – States visited

687 – Words added to book

1512 – Page views on Easy As PIE

December

0 – Words added to my book, I did Christmas instead

2 – Books read, yeah a big finish

2.8 – Pounds gained

12 – Months sliced

20 – Countries visited

25 – Projects completed

46 – States visited

48 – More rolls for Christmas. I had more than I needed for dinner, so I asked my kids if they minded if I shared some of the extra rolls with my team members at work. One of kiddos said, “No, we can eat 30 rolls.”

587 – Pages views

Now that I’ve survived December and have a year of months sliced under my belt for 2013, I’m trying to wrap my head around the New Year. I’m still wrestling with setting my goals for this year so I can move forward and successfully slice another year’s worth of months.

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